bad news. an accident

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hiya....it's been a while. for good reason, probably. i was at the hospital....yeah, i ended up losing the vision in one of my eyes. a spiritual accident....it was hard. really, really hard. i'm conflicted, and confused, and adapting to my new vision has been really hard.....keeping balance when my sense of depth is gone....i try to cover it with my fringe when i can so people don't ask too many questions. but hopefully it doesn't look all that bad....here is a picture of how i look now. :(


 i....don't know why, but a spirit hurt me, and it's hurting my boyfriend. it's hurting us. what is going on? i wish so badly to understand....i had to rest for a bit after the accident but i'm back to reading all i can, looking into purification rituals, anything, really, anything........i'm terrified of not being a good enough medium to solve this. not being able to protect us. i have to be good enough....

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