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clarity.....

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 hiya. it's moon_dahliaX. yesterday i had to run out of the house in a hurricane of emotions, after my boyfriend was....well, not himself again. he nearly missed me when throwing a glass at the wall. between sobs, he told me to run away.....run away from him....and i did......crying so much as i went down the street, not knowing where to go....i ended up walking to the cemetery again, my usual refuge..and there was that lady i talk to sometimes, the one killed by her husband. she saw me crying and came to comfort me, and we had a long conversation.....i told her what was going on at home. i don't think i ever told anyone, i just talked about accidents, and spiritual problems, but i never went into detail. she made me think about a lot of things......maybe i really can't fix this. maybe it's not my responsability to fix him. yes, i love him, but.....you can't be with someone who has hurt you, will hurt you....and clearly, i'm not the one who can solve what is goi
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it gets worse.

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 hiya. since the last post, i haven't been able to make much progress.....in fact, i often feel i'm not doing any at all, if i'm not going backwards.....the spirit has been turning my boyfriend violent. he lets out these horrible screams in the middle of the night....he bangs doors, throws things at the walls..then when he comes back to himself he just cries, and cries. who is doing this to my prince.....? this cat.....i've been reading so much on spirits of animals but i can't find answers! they aren't strong enough to possess people. so it can't be the cat....right? ugh, i wish i could at least see it! why can't i see it?? i'm so tired.....my new vision makes my head hurt, i'm scared of being hurt when i'm at home and the spirit takes over him again, i've lost nights of sleep trying to find answers, only not to find anything......nothing.....i'm at such a loss.....i feel almost like a failure as a medium. the one person i should be
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bad news. an accident

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hiya....it's been a while. for good reason, probably. i was at the hospital....yeah, i ended up losing the vision in one of my eyes. a spiritual accident....it was hard. really, really hard. i'm conflicted, and confused, and adapting to my new vision has been really hard.....keeping balance when my sense of depth is gone....i try to cover it with my fringe when i can so people don't ask too many questions. but hopefully it doesn't look all that bad....here is a picture of how i look now. :(  i....don't know why, but a spirit hurt me, and it's hurting my boyfriend. it's hurting us. what is going on? i wish so badly to understand....i had to rest for a bit after the accident but i'm back to reading all i can, looking into purification rituals, anything, really, anything........i'm terrified of not being a good enough medium to solve this. not being able to protect us. i have to be good enough....
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persecutor.....my boyfriend? (updates)

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 hiya! i wanted to give an update on the situation with ravenskullprince.....it's not really gotten better. he was putting off seeing a psychiatrist even if i told him to....i think he is really scared of thinking he might be crazy :( but of course i would never see him as crazy, never judge him....i think he was just judged a lot in his life by other people. but anyways, that's not the point; the point is.....i think it might be actually spiritual, more and more... he told me he sees this cat in dreams, and now in real life, hears it, especially when he is working on the road....that doesn't sound like a hallucination to me. that sounds like a spirit! a persecutor, trying to scare him, not leaving him alone, harming him.....sometimes they have a bone to pick with us from a past life, even many past lives ago, but it's hard to understand it when it's a cat......and, besides, i cant really see it myself, and that's a big problem....i feel so stuck on how to help!
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persecutor....my boyfriend?

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 hiya! moon_dahliaX here. i have to admit i'm really worried about my boyfriend...he seemed more anxious than.....well, normal, and i tried to pry what was going on out of him....and he confided in me he is seeing and hearing things. cats, noises? it's a bit confusing as he tells me, but it really makes me wonder what is going on. is it spiritual....? or psychological? to be safe, i've done a few passes on him, but i also want him to talk to a professional, you know. what if it's not me that can help him? it seems to be really wearing on him, my baby is so paranoid......well, i will still do all i can to help him in the spiritual sense. a medium must tend to the living as well..
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spirits of places..

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 hiya! moon_dahliaX here. i've been reading this great book by alma matilde....it's called spirits of places! the book really goes deep into talking about how it's not just people that have souls in the spirirtual world.....animals have souls, objects have souls....and places, too, have souls. and just like people, they can be nice, happy, taken care of.......houses that thrive with nice families inside, abandoned houses, long carrying the weight of their loneliness.....parks, gardens, blossoming with the spirit of the life they carry in them......and places of tragedy, often turning sour, just like human persecutors - fed by violence, pain, misery.....they grow angrier, stronger, until you can almost feel them just by stepping inside......the dark atmosphere. it was a really, really interesting read! i hope our house is happy.....well, it's me and my boyfriend who live in it, and we have nothing but love between us, so i hope it's enough to keep it well!
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nice lady at the cemetery

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 hiya! it's moon_dahliaX. i was at the graveyard on tuesday as usual, tending to some of the headstones, cleaning the leaves, putting up new flowers....all of it makes the spirits stuck there a bit happier - when i saw this lady sitting down on her own grave. she was young, dark skin, dark hair in braids, died in the 80s.....that's a long time to be stuck in the cemetery. we had a nice talk about......everything, really. family, romance, death......it's indelicate to ask how someone died so i refrained, but she revealed it on her own.....her husband murdered her. he couldn't accept the end of the relationship. it's always sad to hear of feminicide. it's so unfair, to die just because you're a woman....it really moved me. and now she is the one stuck, unable to move on because of her anger, so strong it keeps her tethered to this world. i really feel for her. i tried to guide her towards a spiritual hub with people who could help, but it seems she thinks she
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