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 hiya! i wanted to give an update on the situation with ravenskullprince.....it's not really gotten better. he was putting off seeing a psychiatrist even if i told him to....i think he is really scared of thinking he might be crazy :( but of course i would never see him as crazy, never judge him....i think he was just judged a lot in his life by other people. but anyways, that's not the point; the point is.....i think it might be actually spiritual, more and more... he told me he sees this cat in dreams, and now in real life, hears it, especially when he is working on the road....that doesn't sound like a hallucination to me. that sounds like a spirit! a persecutor, trying to scare him, not leaving him alone, harming him.....sometimes they have a bone to pick with us from a past life, even many past lives ago, but it's hard to understand it when it's a cat......and, besides, i cant really see it myself, and that's a big problem....i feel so stuck on how to help!...

 hiya! moon_dahliaX here. i have to admit i'm really worried about my boyfriend...he seemed more anxious than.....well, normal, and i tried to pry what was going on out of him....and he confided in me he is seeing and hearing things. cats, noises? it's a bit confusing as he tells me, but it really makes me wonder what is going on. is it spiritual....? or psychological? to be safe, i've done a few passes on him, but i also want him to talk to a professional, you know. what if it's not me that can help him? it seems to be really wearing on him, my baby is so paranoid......well, i will still do all i can to help him in the spiritual sense. a medium must tend to the living as well..

 hiya! moon_dahliaX here. i've been reading this great book by alma matilde....it's called spirits of places! the book really goes deep into talking about how it's not just people that have souls in the spirirtual world.....animals have souls, objects have souls....and places, too, have souls. and just like people, they can be nice, happy, taken care of.......houses that thrive with nice families inside, abandoned houses, long carrying the weight of their loneliness.....parks, gardens, blossoming with the spirit of the life they carry in them......and places of tragedy, often turning sour, just like human persecutors - fed by violence, pain, misery.....they grow angrier, stronger, until you can almost feel them just by stepping inside......the dark atmosphere. it was a really, really interesting read! i hope our house is happy.....well, it's me and my boyfriend who live in it, and we have nothing but love between us, so i hope it's enough to keep it well!

 hiya! it's moon_dahliaX. i was at the graveyard on tuesday as usual, tending to some of the headstones, cleaning the leaves, putting up new flowers....all of it makes the spirits stuck there a bit happier - when i saw this lady sitting down on her own grave. she was young, dark skin, dark hair in braids, died in the 80s.....that's a long time to be stuck in the cemetery. we had a nice talk about......everything, really. family, romance, death......it's indelicate to ask how someone died so i refrained, but she revealed it on her own.....her husband murdered her. he couldn't accept the end of the relationship. it's always sad to hear of feminicide. it's so unfair, to die just because you're a woman....it really moved me. and now she is the one stuck, unable to move on because of her anger, so strong it keeps her tethered to this world. i really feel for her. i tried to guide her towards a spiritual hub with people who could help, but it seems she thinks she ...

 hiya! more updates on my spirits study.  there is a downside to getting so involved with your mediunity.....you have to start putting down limits to the spirits, or they will start talking to you all the time, appearing for you, possessing you......yes, possessing! i've found out that whenever i drink, it breaks down my barriers and they are able to come in....afterwards i'm not only hungover but spiritually exhausted. i never remember a lot and that's pretty scary! i had to stop drinking :( which is hard when you're also in a band, haha.  i've had some passes done on me, purifications, but it's hard to keep them out for good. i get that they want to put messages foward though, i understand. i just can't take all of these demands!  hopefully i learn how to navigate this better as i mature as a medium......i try to play tough but all of this has been draining my energy, it's true. there is still college to pay mind to! if only of the spirits wanted to do...

 yes, he works at a road!! we can always take the prettiest night pictures. though it's too windy sometimes, haha..this is just a kind of dumb looking one he took of me. but i think blurry pics have their charm too. :)

 hiya! today i'm going to delve into darker territory.... as i start deepening my contact with the spirits i've ran into some not very nice ones. i was alone at the cemetry yesterday when these extremely tall men started showing up, jumping towards my face with screams and disappearing.....they get a kick out of scaring me! i've been learning they can tell when you're a medium, and some of them are angry, frustrated, they take it out on you... it's unfortunate because i really want to help them still, even if they just want to come after me. i've told my mom, she tells me i'm too kind for my own good sometimes. haha, maybe.......but i truly just want to be a good medium....i want to help even persecutors who want to harm me. make them calmer, make them understand.....maybe i'm too much of a an optimist, but it can be possible, right?? i think anyone can be saved, if i just put in enough effort and understanding, you know..